Wednesday, 15 March 2017

The truth anout my manic posts andpushing people away.
I say this started innocently, I'd found on a reputable selling website hundreds and probably hundreds more selling what they said were legal and asyounding pills and injections thattake away so much of your hunger. Know im the vain type to go for liposuction etc! I was very sceptical about the bottles and injections ut only that I couldn't see them workings much, the ones overy the counter never helped. Little did I know I've been taking actual amphetamin!!! Buy after 3 days my hunger had stopped completely and for this being the 6th 7th week. But I've also been vomiting up to 20 times a day,,q and falling most dwys. So I had a rushed blood text on Monday and Tuesday I had to get my results from my doctor she was as kind as she could be never shouting, she seemed v concerned about me. So mum gave her all my pills and said I will try some sort of weight watching programme

Anyway night before last a fell again
"Unfortunately it took a health scare to reprioritise"

So 2 nights ago I fell Harne on my legs and expected X more carpet burns but instead of that both my upper thighs are I completely in agony even moving in bed and I can't even walk out. I'm hoping it will take the less than a fortnight advice so I can catch my second wind and get out there be helpful to mum again as feeling this and being so frail makes me think she is my carer instead.. So I've put up song songs, mainly girly defiant! 

Please forgive me for givingyou bed news but hope it explains I'm moving on and don't you ever try this things as now my pancreas has had it and my liver disease is worse. Ps that thighs have muscle 
Love you all !!! From a more positive Lizzieand an even less stupid one! Thanks to My wonderful dr and nurse Ksren!

It's not worth the drama for a Beautiful Lie.

This song is such a comfort to me and I hope to  you too! Xxx

Wednesday, 8 March 2017

All of me

Well today is a bit about opening up.
Past few weeks I've been taking weight loss supplements that you either have an injection or pills. The probes is that they have ruined my apitite....completely. I can't eat  anything. In fact the smell of food sickens me. I've come to the point where I can seek over 24 hours sometimes over 2 days. And when I try to eat a bit, or even if I don't, it's like green water that projectiles even at no notice.
The good this is a I was weighed and last year I think I was just past 115kg. I'm now 94. 
But I'd like to feel better but until I do I doubt I'll be online for a while yet.
Below are some songs and I'll write more below them.

It's as if Meat Loaf can speak for everyone, and isn't afraid to take the mick of himself. I hope you like them!

Why do I like this last song? It's a song of redemption. I mean I am aware the second verse could be a penis joke! But the last verse the man seeing "angels in the architecture" and. He sings "hallelujah " . I like that very much.

I should have said above that I'm hardly taking the pills  and injections. Becuae every daynits green water I puke. But I'll try to not see the doctor until next week, as I'm due a blood test anyway.
The weight I've list seems to be just in my thighs anyway, so not too impressed.

Like I said, I hope to be online soon, if this tiredness goes. But rest assured I'm not ignoring anyone, iits s bit hard to concentrate properly. But I thank you all so much for your prayers xxxxx

Monday, 20 February 2017

The Joy of Crazy Crazy Nights!

I love this song!!! It stands for us all! Recently I've been on my way to starting new things. Work wise, health wise, faith wise. The start of each of ongoing. As they will take time. So I've been listeningbtomthis song ever sings the unknown has started to leave phones alone, here's a pic of it calling before!

So you are a "superstar" - get off the cross, we need the wood:



Wanted to add some cool Queen songs! 

"Pictures of Crippen lipstick's a no no to your coffee!!"


Me doing a selfie the wrong way lol

My mum out on Sunday with her broken foot healing! 

So it is. Jog on!

 There be


 that my posse can do.......

I will move all mountains that stand in my path.... 

You bless us. All the lyricists . 

Thank you Jesus!

"SHE Was born in the Winter of her 38th year"
Thant moment you know you know you know. I have a huge appreciation of love life and nature now.

And since I'm allowed to go anywhere in the world....

Do inbox me you're one (ok maybe two songs) song that you can't help but feel a deep connection to!

My intelligent cute cat! 

HOpe you all have a great week, Hermits!  Xxxx

I made this mistake last year. I've more street smarts now than they have.
Poor them, even a PHD can go to waste.

Wednesday, 15 February 2017

"I'll sue ya"


Where'd you learn how to Steer?
IYou do eighty in second gear
When you drive, I can't relax 
Got your license from Cracker Jack
You just hit another tree  
These fender benders are killing me

She drives like crazy
Like noone els
And I'm afraid for my life 
They'll put you behind bars
We're not playin' bumper cars
Did a great figure eight....
In the middle of the interstate

Tires squeel wherever we go
Even hitchhikers just say no!
She drives like crazy
Her car's a mess
She's got a death wish I guess
She's a demon
Behind the wheel
Thinks she's drivin'
The Bat Mobile
Passin' "semi-"s on the right
Now my knuckles are turnin' whit
💖She drives like crazy
She'll break our necks
She drives like  crazy
And I fear for myself.

Aww I should a been a lyricist and married ALW LOL
Well the day has been slow since mum broke her toe. Bless her she keeps trying tonslw to get the
pain away. take lithium too? Don't in make you more stable? In muy case my soh is wicked, playful and grateful to all whose helped me. It does NOT make  me violent, I'll be a staff member having
volunteer work for homeless people soon. This I could never have done without my meds, as you all
know I used to live in a shelter, this is my chance to give back, with pure love and if you
take lirhium please iinbox me! they have helped! how about we all meet up for a pub crawl sometime in the up near future? Let's allantalk and meet and greet in person?

It's funny, what I've written above totally explains how it feel to be stuck in a car on a long ride
knowing the person driving probably couldn't walk a straight line...

And that's with no booze!
I'm  making light of this because I can't  do anything else.mive done crying about Hell inncalifornia.
white knuckle ride in a different country. Mum was so apparelled when I explained how I was feeling
so close to death and so sick to death of weird untrue stories of mortals giving her a car crash 3 times in one week.,.. Call me weird, but from what I saw the blame would never lay on anyone else.

I'm trying to go deeper into faith, I'm starting to believe the church I attend is not all it seems.
people could be transparent, and loyal to their loyal congregation it would be great.  I remember Elim
being much better, a hands up to God and you could not only see the live but feel theri excit I wish I could have let myself go instead of being guarded
I hope my new faith choice which is something I want dearly will be the answer. I'm feeling more comfort as a human with real feeling. Especially if it rains!

And some songs ep are for us - those with mental illnesses and this who still let go in a good sway, after because we are who we are who we are !!!!!!!

Before that here's somethings also relevant! I've turned into the Wild Child I've always dreamed I'd

be again

This song reminds me of my love of rain.
Always found blessings amd calm sent by nature, life and God. So does Enya.

  We are who we are! 

Thursday, 9 February 2017

Don't get my sympathy hanging out the 15th floor

We get knocked down, but we get up again - you're never gonna keep us down.

To all of my HH family, you are perfect to me xxx

You're gonna hear me ROAR!!!

I've had another good meeting with my cpn, now I have to say, this post may contain strong worded memes (LOL) and maybe songs unexpected.
This is because my cpn, who was so helpful, said I have to nurture my inner child, perhaps more now than ever. I'll just call her she. He says she's still innocent, but we must try to find a balance between her trusting everything said to me, and making her aware that I must become more aware of the dangers in life, the sickness of others that is plain evil, and learning more about myself.
So I'm letting some of my emotions out here, about people, about life and myself.
I'm glad to say I'm doing so well mentally, that I couldn't even break IN to the lakes even if I wanted 
to lol. Any nonsense about me being sick is complete lies by someone sicker than anyone I'd even met during my stays in the lakes.    
It feels good to know I'm not nuts, freeing, and a feeling of pride.
He says I've been through so much recently, and, well, it's fab!
To anyone who says I'm nuts (you know who you are) here's a meme for you! Thanks D for the stolen meme lol.

And here's a shoutout to my restless inner child! I think I will travel again this year! A real adventure!

And my "God will judge you" child!


Yes I'm into putting up movie monsters right now lol.

If you've made it this far....congratulations lol, I'm very into everything at the moment, and now it's the turn of memes! 
I should say in over a month I may be hai g my interview to help the homeless, something you know s close to my heart! I'm really excited!!!!

My son says hello!!! 
Love ya's xxxx

"Get up and see the sarcasm in my eyes!"